What’s Following Me? – Eleanor McEvoy

What's Following Me?
1996 (Columbia 484233)
Produced by Eleanor McEvoy & Kevin Moloney.

Lyrics

A Glass Unkissed
Where Is The Healing?
Don’t Ask Me Why
Precious Little
Whisper A Prayer To The Moon
Trapped Inside
Sleepless
My Own Sweet Bed Tonight
Biochemistry
The Weatherman (Twelve Days)
The Fire Overhead
All That Surrounds Me
Famine

A Glass Unkissed

(Eleanor McEvoy)

Lost touch, long ago,
It didn’t end so well, I know
Lashed out, had a row
Don’t know where home is for you now
Your drink should not have stayed undrunk
You should have drunk it down with your prayers
I showed no mercy to you then
No mercy when

Chorus

A glass unkissed by human lips
A glass untouched by human hands
A glass unbroken cut the skin
‘Till we bled
A glass unkissed by human lips
A glass untouched by human hands
A glass unbroken cut us both
‘Till we bled

Lost all in the end
Threw out the suffering of a friend
Let’s hope life is kind
And will deliver peace of mind
Forgive this crazy one
Her crazey time in hell
She keeps her silence now
And means you well

Chorus

Where Is The Healing

(Eleanor McEvoy)

I look for comfort in the arms of every friend that I have known,
I long for poetry to sweep away the clouds above my soul.
I let myself believe that these will be my saviours till the end.
And so, on them I depend.
On them I depend.

Chorus

Where is the drug?
Where is the healing?
Where is whatever will ease this pain?
There is nothing I won’t swallow
To stop what’s eating up my brain
And get my feeling back again

I hear tortured voices buried deep inside of my head,
I have restlessness and anger as a pillow for my bed.
I hope it won’t be long ‘til I can prove myself to be
Untarnished by what’s followin’ me
What is followin’ me?

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What of the prayers that seek to comfort one who’s losing her love,
What of her mother’s cries that surely she has suffered enough.
And when he’s gone where is the justice in a child that knows his name
As a photo in a frame
A picture in a frame

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Where is the drug?
Where is the healing?
Where is whatever will ease this pain?
There is nothing she won’t swallow
To stop what’s eating up her brain
And get my feeling back again

Where is the drug?
Where is the healing?
Where is whatever will ease this pain?
There is nothing we won’t swallow
To stop what’s eating up our brain
And get our feeling back again

Where is the drug?
Where is the healing?
Where is whatever will ease this pain?
There is nothing they won’t swallow
To stop what’s eating up their brain
And get their feeling back again

Don’t Ask Me Why

(Eleanor McEvoy)

Lying here naked with me
Can you see
Tears that I can’t hide
If I could tell you about it
I would
But I couldn’t if I tried

Don’t ask me why
Don’t ask me why
Don’t ask me why
When I don’t know

Lying here naked I try
Not to cry
In your tender loving hands
Sometimes you touch an emotion
In me
That I just don’t understand

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Don’t ask me why
These tears of mine will flow
Don’t ask me why
Truth is,I don’t know

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Precious Little

(Eleanor McEvoy)

Shake your beads out,
One by one
And call me Magdalene
It won’t grieve me
I understand
Where it is you’re coming from
Draw a curtain
Close your eyes
When history’s pages fail you.
I will not open up those history books
That’s not for me to do.

Precious little in your life
Is yours by right
And won without a fight
Precious little in your life
Is yours by right
And won without a fight.

Shadows call me,
In the wind
Some don’t go away
Angels guide me
From the clouds
In everything I do and say
Shake your beads out

Kneeling down
It will not pass me by
Two people coming from a different place
Maybe neither one is right.

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Shake your beads out
Join your hands
That still won’t make you right
Those so-called sinners that you’re praying for
Are standing by your side

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Whisper A Prayer To The Moon

(Eleanor McEvoy)

In case of loving unreturned
Unrequited fingers burn
Don’t you blame yourself at all
There is no blame,there is no crime
This madness happens all the time
No one there to break your fall

I understand how hard it’s been
I’ve been there too and I have seen
What running after love can do
That feeling deep down in your soul
That searing,empty,gaping hole
Has dug a hole in my life too

My darling,my darling
So crazy,so charming
It’s just that it happened too soon
But I send you my wishes
My hugs and my kisses
And whisper a prayer to the moon

In case you’ve lost your faith in life
In case you cannot sleep at night
Be certain this will take it’s toll
I recognise those waves of pain
I’ve known them time and time again
And would not wish them on a soul

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In cases lying by your door
A life is packed to go once more
There was no intent to deceive
Please bear no grudge,just bear your soul
It’s hardly bearable to go
And barely possible to leave

My sweet tempered angel
I wish I were able
To heal all the hurt with a tune
And if I had the powers
I would give you the stars
The sun and the light of the moon

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Repaet CHORUS

I whisper a prayer
I whisper a prayer
I whisper a prayer to the moon
I whisper a prayer
I whisper a prayer
I whisper a prayer to the moon

Trapped Inside

(Eleanor McEvoy)

The black and white
Is clear to see
It’s shades of grey
Are puzzling me
Shades of feeling like
My body’s buried deep,
Half asleep, half asleep.

It’s a very deep hole,
With very steep sides,
I can’t climb out
I’m trapped inside
It’s a very deep hole,
With very steep sides
I can’t climb out
Lord knows I’ve tried,
But I’m trapped inside
You know I’ve tried,
But I’m trapped inside.

What is it with me,
I make no sense
Why is it
I talk in future tense.
When I’m s’posed to sing
My voice it goes to shout
“Can’t break out, I can’t break out”.

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All my climbing up has me nowhere,
All of this can get too much to bear
All I’m tryin’ to do is mend this beat up heart
That’s a start, that’s a start.

Sleepless

(Eleanor McEvoy)

I wasn’t the kind to ask questions
I wasn’t the kind had the time,
I wasn’t the kind with a suspicious mind
Now I’m kind of sorry, oh how I’m sorry
It’s not what you did has me sleepless
It’s not what you did has me aching so much,
It’s not what you did that is hurting the most
It’s the lies that you told, covering up

CHORUS

Please, please don’t say how much you think of me
Please, please don’t say how much you cared
Please, don’t say that you’d never lie to me
Spare me those lies you’ve prepared.

I’m not above feeling foolish
I’m not above being betrayed
I’m not above, singing stories of love,
But God how my stories have changed
It’s not what you did has me sleepless
It’s not what you did has me aching so much
It’s not what you did that is hurting the most
It’s lies that you told me, those lies that you told me.

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My Own Sweet Bed Tonight

While I’d like a glass of whiskey,
It will not change my mind.
So if it’s offered for that reason,
Or if you’re just being kind.

Chorus

I will go to my own sweet bed tonight,
I won’t try to explain.
I will go to my own sweet bed tonight,
It’s much too hard, to explain.

So take some comfort in that whiskey,
It’s often been my friend,
And if it warms a lonely body,
Well who’s to say it’s bad.

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If kindness takes a little longer
It’s worth the extra time,
Some have lives so long in darkness,
They don’t even recognise the light.

Understand, there’s a child in everyone,
We should watch what we say.
Everyone has their battles and their pain,
Hidden somewhere away.

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Biochemistry

(Eleanor McEvoy)

Yes it’s ok
No I don’t mind
But take it slow ’cause I take
Time to unwind
And if you’re nervous that’s ok, hey,
So am I, so am I, so am I
Put it down to my biochemistry
Put it down to the way I love champagne
Put it down to compatibility
And put your lips to mine again
Put your lips to mine again
No I don’t mind
And to be precise
If you did well, it would
Be kind of nice
So let that sparkle overflow,oh,
Don’t be shy, don’t be shy, don’t be shy
Put it down to my biochemistry
Put it down to the way I love champagne
Put it down to compatibility
And put your lips to mine again
Put it down to my biochemistry
Put it down to the way I hate the rain
Put it down to compatibility
Put your lips to mine again
No I don’t mind
And I’d like to say
I love the fact that first you
Asked anyway
So slide on over here to me,
Make me smile, make me smile, make me smile
Put it down to my biochemistry
Put it down to the way I love champagne
Put it down to compatibility
Put your lips to mine again
Put it down to my biochemistry
Put it down to the way I hate the rain
Put it down to compatibility
Put your lips to mine again
Put your lips to mine again
Yes it’s ok
Really it’s fine
Gentle shivers running down my spine
Have me feeling to my toes,
Satisfied, satisfied, satisfied
Put it down to my biochemistry
Put it down to the way I love champagne
Put it down to compatibility
Put your lips to mine again
Put it down to my biochemistry
Put it down to the way I hate the rain
Put it down to compatibility
Put your lips to mine again

The Fire Overhead

(Eleanor McEvoy)
Fire’s burn, turning into dust
What was precious, what was pretty paradise
Fire’s burn, burning to the ground.
What was healthy what was holy, what was life.
If you think it’s hot now,
If you hate that heat
You think it’s bad now, wait and see,
You think it’s close now as you sleep within your bed.

Check out the fire
Check out the fire
Check out the fire overhead.

Children grow, playing with their toys
Acting out their fairytales in play
Children play, growing with the noise
Of television teaching them the way,
And while you’re sometimes scared now
If you see the flames
You think the smoke’s from far away,
You read the papers, saying the fire will not spread

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Sweet the light, glowing neon blue
Of havens offering shelter from the storm
Sweet the sound, crackling in the grate
Of firelight, welcoming and warm
But if you think it’s safe now,
If you feel at ease
Your safety’s hanging from a thread
Before you’re happy, having locked your doors at night

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The Weatherman

(Eleanor McEvoy)

Keep the weatherman sweet,
Then begin sweeping the driveway.
News is that the heat’s
Coming in, Thursday or Friday.
Now I’m a little slow to see
How weatherman’s words are gonna satisfy me
Words can change my point of view
Only if they prove to be true

Seven inches of rain,
I believe it’s gonna get wetter
Seven days of the week.
Hopes are high it’s gonna get better
Now, I’m not in the hoping game
That’s a kind of a pity and a bit of a shame
But hope can be a two-edged sword
And a luxury that I just can’t afford

Twelve days, snow would spread the cold around
Twelve days heat would melt the snow on the ground
Twelve days sun is what I’m looking for now
Twelve days grey what’s in store.

Keep the weatherman sweet
Then go off, buy an umbrella
Go and wait for the sun
Go and dream beautiful weather
I’m much too old for dreams
Now that’s a little bit sad,
But not as sad as it seems
When dreams have been a thorny crown
It’s not so sad when they’re tumblin’ down

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The Fire Overhead

(Eleanor McEvoy)

Fire’s burn, turning into dust
What was precious, what was pretty paradise
Fire’s burn, burning to the ground.
What was healthy what was holy, what was life.
If you think it’s hot now,
If you hate that heat
You think it’s bad now, wait and see,
You think it’s close now as you sleep within your bed.

Check out the fire
Check out the fire
Check out the fire overhead.

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All That Surrounds Me

(Eleanor McEvoy)

Smells of toast and coffee served to put in mind his name today
Never did take much to get me thinking about him anyway
In time I may progress to welcoming the coffee’s scent
At present I have no such strength.

Is there no poetry, no melody to comfort me,
To blur these images, etched upon my memory.
My stereo is where I go to let the sunshine in,
But every note’s like one from him.

All that surrounds me,
Won’t let him go,
All that surrounds me
Won’t let him go.

If falling rain could only wash away my memories
Then I would welcome rain and never let it bother me
From my windowsill I’d watch the drops and then begin
To picture him soaked to the skin.

All that surrounds me,
Won’t let him go
All that surrounds me
Won’t let him go
Won’t let him go
Won’t let him go.

Famine

(Eleanor McEvoy)

An act of God has struck us
An act of faith sustains us
But it seems hopeless
And I feel helpless to you
An act of man has hit us
Worse than any God
And I can’t shield you
And I can’t shelter you,but

If you’re in need of comfort
I will do what I can
If I can’t feed your body
I’ll soothe it with my hands
If I can’t ease your hunger
I’ll give you all I have
To nourish and love
To nourish and love
To nourish and love

The country drenched in fever
The”Princess Alice” leaves her
But I can’t send you
And I can’t hope to save you
The hunger on this Island’s
Spread to every door
And I can’t shield you
And I can’t shelter you,but

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